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things that make me sad/angry: animals in cages, feeling so sick from feeling so full, the earth quake in haiti, not being closer to my family, being disobedient, not getting stuff done on lists, old people who are lonely, people who are lonely in general, when people are depressed, when i am depressed for no good reasons or for reasons that i create, having an addiction to food when some people have absolutely no food, when people get cancer, when people are arrogant or prideful or just plain mean, when i am arrogant or prideful or just plain mean, some movies (revolutionary road, etc), not being honest, making people feel that they are below me, when i waste time doing stupid things, when i don't think about more wholesome things, when people are mad/angry/annoyed with each other, when people hurt each other and throw things at each other in a mean way, when i forget about people or forget that i'm supposed to hang out with them or meet up with them, when i wake up late, when i don't know what's going on in the world because i'm too lazy to read the news (even though i'm a journalism major), when i'm too scared/embarrassed to compliment people or tell them something nice that i think is true because i might look dumb, prejudging people, the holocaust, genocide, when i can't do everything at one time, when i procrastinate like a frikkin fool, being rude, spilling stuff on myself, when things are falling or dropping, not getting the chance to say goodbye, how everything just feels so broken and not fixable sometimes

things that make me happy/joyful: being in a room with a bunch of people that i love and seeing their love for each other and their love for God (it causes my heart to melt), cinnamon hugs, realizing that God is actually real - that Jesus is REAL, being filled with the Holy Spirit, making new friends, long conversations about everything and nothing, when i make a recipe i've never made before and realize it wasn't even that hard, becoming better friends with my brother, listening to my brother talk, quad, visiting friends, running into people randomly in random places, random acts of kindness, snail mail, MUSIC, dancing to music with people, being stressed because i have a lot to do and then getting it all done and being able to relax, family gatherings, great books, realizing people usually have a lot more goodness than i first thought them to have, running through fields just for the sake of running through fields, epic adventures, music + driving, laughing so hard, grace, grinding my own coffee, big ol hugs, playing in puddles, ice cream, some movies, going to bed early by choice, dear roommate, michael jackson conspiracy theories (he's alive!), christmas time, surprise parties, eating meals together, cooking together, breathing, stretching, waking up early on my own, mountains, people i love, dance breaks, biddle hall, living so close to friends, sleepovers, 11 stew, GALs, sky, clouds, trees, stargazin, rain storms, summer time, autumn, drinking milk, squash, homemade bread, sleeping in the midst of friends, watching scary movies with friends, kettle corn, painting things, drawing things, talking to children, water, peanut butter, mom & dad, hilarious people, awkward people, people people, drawing aliens, writing notes on whiteboards, beetssssss, reading for leisure, college


love/hate: staying up late for no reason, the realization that i have no control over my future, being uncertain, awkward situations, shively dining hall, having to change, the movie food, inc.